Okay, small update.
I didn't officially start tracking my eating until the 19th...which I do through "The Daily Plate" at Livestrong.com.
This is an amazing resource...AMAZING. It has in its database almost anything you could think of eating and instantly plugs it in when you click on it and calculates how many fat grams you are eating, fiber, carbs, etc.
So. Cool.
I did weigh myself today...not expecting a loss at all, and found I was down .8 of a pound since Tuesday morning. Awesome! Really, I know it is small...but it is the right direction...and it hasn't even been a week.
I agreed to first make the change of journaling/tracking what I was eating for a week before I really focused what it was that I was putting in my mouth. Psychologically, it must have a small impact.
I would love to lose 2 pounds a week...consistently. That is what I am ultimately going for.
The weather here prohibits any sort of outside activity right now, so next week I intend to begin incorporating more focused food choices and some sort of activity 3 times a week. That is my small start...my baby steps. And it is all about what works for me at this point.
My first goal on the scale is truly just the 10 pound mark. I am on my way, but know that it will be slow. I have a cruise coming up in the fall...and I would love to drop 50 pounds by that time! I can SO do it! Really! Just watch!
I am writing this as if the whole world were cheering me on...whether you are or not...thank you for your kind thoughts, support, and prayers...please pray for me...for without prayer...this FAITH, is nothing!
Miss Faith
Friday, January 22, 2010
Thursday, January 14, 2010
I didn't change my mind...yet...
Happy New Year!
I am apparently still wasting time being fat.
I have beenbusy procrastinating.
I am still in this deal. Really, I am.
I have a great support network of friends that are needing to join me in this.
I have a girlfriend who has invited me twice weekly to workout.
I have healthy food in the house.
I have plenty of EXCUSES...but I am trading them in for ACTIVITIES.
I hopped on the scale (I use the term hopped loosely, by the way.) and saw the biggest number I have ever seen in digital readout staring back at me.
I was ready and willing and motivated...so I started a class on Tuesday nights. Based on a book from a Christian perspective. I will be using that support system to my advantage.
We will be focusing on healthy lifestyle choices and not any one particular diet. I will most likely begin just simple calorie counting.
There is a really great website out there called www.livestrong.com and it is a part of the Lance Armstrong network of health and awareness for better living.
The site has a free application that will help you to track everything from what you eat to what you weigh and how many calories you are burning vs eating...etc. It is amazing.
Due to some personal commitments and out of town obligations, I did not purpose to start really taking care of business until this past Monday, the 11th. But I have decided to give myself until Tuesday the 19th.
We will be attending parties this weekend as well as an out of town event, and I didn't want to have to start diet tracking hardcore until we return.
Here is what I know right now...
I have a BMI of 42.7.
That is in the morbidly obese category. Yikes.
I have a body weight, buck naked on the scales at home of: 248.7.
Double yikes.
I am almost 250 pounds.
I cannot believe it.
I am actually closer to 300 pounds than I am to 100 pounds. I really never thought I would see the day.
Please join me in praying for me that this is the highest number I will ever see and that I WILL begin the downward trend towards healthier living!
As of now, I have these long term goals:
148 pounds. (Still categorizes me as mildly overweight...but I was really happy at that weight...many moons ago...and I think it is attainable. I will most likely never be a 120 pound gal.)
BMI of under 30. (That is going to take some hard work.) That also means when I reach that goal that I am within 20 pounds of my weight goal.
My short term, attainable goals are:
1) Lose 10 pounds the first month while making the health and lifestyle adjustments I intend to keep for a long time.
After that, losing a minimum of 1.5 - 2lbs per week.
That too, will take some hard work and serious diet alterations, but I can do it!
2) Daily activity. (Walking, fitness tape, whatever...just do it for 30 minutes.)
3) Journaling my food intake. (Without regard to good food/bad food at this point, but sticking to a fairly healthy intake of fruits, vegetables, carbs, protein, and some indulgences...but mostly landing at about 1800 calories a day.)
4) Consistency. That is where I generally fail. I don't stick with something long enough to actually attain my goals. I get complacent and quit. Every. Time.
I am not going to do that this time.
5) Prayer. I intend to seek the Lord daily and ask for His help in having self-control, reducing the temptations in my life, making His will my work...and so on.
A verse from years ago really stuck with me. I want it to be my life mission statement from here on out...
"Do not destroy the work of God for the sake of food." Romans 14:20
I have spent my life destroying the good things that God has given me...His gifts...all because I wanted to lay on the couch or eat a ding dong.
I have put my gratification with eating and dieting...first. Without regard to what the lack of discipline has done to the work that God was calling me to.
Right now, it is simply mothering. Being a good wife. Helping others.
I can't do any of that because I am so self-focused with my food addiction. It is painful to admit. But I have destroyed the work of God....for the sake of food.
I haven't been available to do things as a wife and mother, because of where I am because of the food. I have declined invitations, not gone on field trips, skipped cocktail parties with my hubby, not shown the support and love to the people in my house all because I am too embarrassed of what I have let food do in my life. I have bowed down to food.
It has become my idol.
I am praying for release from this captivity. I am praying for the strength to loose the chains myself.
God has given me the tools...and I just need to use them!
Keep praying for me!
Faith
I hope to check back on Tuesday the 19th...at a weight less than the 248.7. I will talk with you then!
I am apparently still wasting time being fat.
I have been
I am still in this deal. Really, I am.
I have a great support network of friends that are needing to join me in this.
I have a girlfriend who has invited me twice weekly to workout.
I have healthy food in the house.
I have plenty of EXCUSES...but I am trading them in for ACTIVITIES.
I hopped on the scale (I use the term hopped loosely, by the way.) and saw the biggest number I have ever seen in digital readout staring back at me.
I was ready and willing and motivated...so I started a class on Tuesday nights. Based on a book from a Christian perspective. I will be using that support system to my advantage.
We will be focusing on healthy lifestyle choices and not any one particular diet. I will most likely begin just simple calorie counting.
There is a really great website out there called www.livestrong.com and it is a part of the Lance Armstrong network of health and awareness for better living.
The site has a free application that will help you to track everything from what you eat to what you weigh and how many calories you are burning vs eating...etc. It is amazing.
Due to some personal commitments and out of town obligations, I did not purpose to start really taking care of business until this past Monday, the 11th. But I have decided to give myself until Tuesday the 19th.
We will be attending parties this weekend as well as an out of town event, and I didn't want to have to start diet tracking hardcore until we return.
Here is what I know right now...
I have a BMI of 42.7.
That is in the morbidly obese category. Yikes.
I have a body weight, buck naked on the scales at home of: 248.7.
Double yikes.
I am almost 250 pounds.
I cannot believe it.
I am actually closer to 300 pounds than I am to 100 pounds. I really never thought I would see the day.
Please join me in praying for me that this is the highest number I will ever see and that I WILL begin the downward trend towards healthier living!
As of now, I have these long term goals:
148 pounds. (Still categorizes me as mildly overweight...but I was really happy at that weight...many moons ago...and I think it is attainable. I will most likely never be a 120 pound gal.)
BMI of under 30. (That is going to take some hard work.) That also means when I reach that goal that I am within 20 pounds of my weight goal.
My short term, attainable goals are:
1) Lose 10 pounds the first month while making the health and lifestyle adjustments I intend to keep for a long time.
After that, losing a minimum of 1.5 - 2lbs per week.
That too, will take some hard work and serious diet alterations, but I can do it!
2) Daily activity. (Walking, fitness tape, whatever...just do it for 30 minutes.)
3) Journaling my food intake. (Without regard to good food/bad food at this point, but sticking to a fairly healthy intake of fruits, vegetables, carbs, protein, and some indulgences...but mostly landing at about 1800 calories a day.)
4) Consistency. That is where I generally fail. I don't stick with something long enough to actually attain my goals. I get complacent and quit. Every. Time.
I am not going to do that this time.
5) Prayer. I intend to seek the Lord daily and ask for His help in having self-control, reducing the temptations in my life, making His will my work...and so on.
A verse from years ago really stuck with me. I want it to be my life mission statement from here on out...
"Do not destroy the work of God for the sake of food." Romans 14:20
I have spent my life destroying the good things that God has given me...His gifts...all because I wanted to lay on the couch or eat a ding dong.
I have put my gratification with eating and dieting...first. Without regard to what the lack of discipline has done to the work that God was calling me to.
Right now, it is simply mothering. Being a good wife. Helping others.
I can't do any of that because I am so self-focused with my food addiction. It is painful to admit. But I have destroyed the work of God....for the sake of food.
I haven't been available to do things as a wife and mother, because of where I am because of the food. I have declined invitations, not gone on field trips, skipped cocktail parties with my hubby, not shown the support and love to the people in my house all because I am too embarrassed of what I have let food do in my life. I have bowed down to food.
It has become my idol.
I am praying for release from this captivity. I am praying for the strength to loose the chains myself.
God has given me the tools...and I just need to use them!
Keep praying for me!
Faith
I hope to check back on Tuesday the 19th...at a weight less than the 248.7. I will talk with you then!
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